The need to write a blog post engulfs me. For some reason, I feel that every Tuesday and Friday/Saturday I must post here. Why? I don't know. Perhaps in hopes that my words will make a difference, or because I believe that's what I need to do to be fully committed to this blog God has called me to. Sometimes, when facing a decision, big or little, it's hard to know what to do. People say, "Ask God, He'll give you direction." But if God doesn't speak audibly, how can we hear Him? This is what I'm going through right now. I'm searching for answers. I'm about to make a big decision in my life (as big as they can get when you're 14), and I want solely God to influence the answer. I feel He is calling me to quit my hobby, so I can better follow Him. I don't feel like this hobby is taking time away from Him, but maybe, maybe it is. I don't want to regret my decision, but if I say, "Yes, God, I will give it up" when it turns out He wasn't calling me to give it up in the first place, is there any reversing it? I don't know. Sometimes, I'm okay with not knowing, but right now I want to know, I want answers. But in the midst of this "silence", I feel so close to God, so intimate with Him. How can this be? How can I hear silence when He is teaching me so much? I suppose His answer is, "Wait, little child. Wait and I will tell you in My perfect time."
For those seeking answers from Him, I encourage you, be patient along with me. God, in His perfect timing, will reveal the answer.
-Emily, waiting for answers
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